{ finding sunshine }

11:25 AM

finding sunshine...

many days its hard to want to go to sleep because i know i am going to have to wake up to do the same ol' thing again.

-get all the kids ready for the day

-get them breakfast while i pack them lunches

-break up frights at the table

-calm ezra down because he dropped something while sitting at the table

-repeat myself over and over again about getting snow gear on before daddy gets home to take them to school

-and once the two older ones are gone i am left with sitting on the floor hoping that i can be the peacemaker between the two littles.

-then lunch. why must food be such a battle?

-i pray that everyone takes a nap so i have a few minutes to get to the dishes and think about doing the mound of laundry that haunts me. i usually say "nope not today" -_-

-dinner prep

-some days i have to wake up the littles to go pick up the older two (always ends terribly) but most day since bringing home ezra my husband will pick them and drop them off before heading back to work.

-once they are all home i feel like its survival mode until bedtime. it all just becomes a blur. lol

I won't lie. Life is a bit more crazy since our adoption has been finalized and ezra has been home. I can't do the dishes and i can barely leave my home. i have to monitor his every movement because he is my personal little tornado. and i am never sure whats going to cause an outburst.

BUT i say all this because I am learning to find JOY in all this...the sunshine! I just LOVE THIS BOY so much and he is changing this mommy's heart. And we are starting to see fruits from pouring into him on those long days + long nights.

(these two were in our hotel room in korea)

(first time he want me to pick him up)

(first day at his new home)

I hardly recognize this little boy. He is flourishing into a bright smart young boy. He is slowly finding his place amongst the siblings and in the rhythm of our household. I'm not saying we don't have dark cloudy days but when we choose see the growth instead of being stuck in pain over the worsening of other behaviors...we can finally see a glimpse of sunshine.